fun night and lazy day

Sat 1/18
10 am.

I’m procrastinating. It’s cold outside and I want to stay comfy cozy in my jammies all day. The Gym is calling me. The minor workout routine that I’ve been mimicking from physical therapy is not even difficult. My shoulder sometimes aches for a couple of days after I do it, even after icing it, so I’m avoiding that perhaps. I’ve been in pain far too long and it’s really ridiculous that I’ve let my self get this weak. I could be injured so easily. I slid, while walking into the salon the other day and as I put my arms out for balance, I torqued my shoulder just enough to create more pain. John keeps pestering me to go to the Dr. I think more because he’s tired of hearing me say ouch, than compassion for me. I know what I need to do, I just need to consistently do it. I have about 6 or 7 weeks till Florida, so that is my goal, to be pain free down there. If it’s no better by then, I promised John I’ll see my doc.

Sun 1/19
5pm

Well, I was proud to get through my routine yesterday. I didn’t get much else accomplished, besides grocery store and laundry. I was planning on going to the gym today to my lower body routine-- have to strengthen around my knees too. I felt a little headachy, so I thought that would be enough to get me out of going out last night. John’s boss was celebrating her birthday at a pub in Noblesville. I really didn’t want to go to a smoky bar and knew I’d be worthless today if we went. He seemed to really want to do this, and he rarely asks for anything in particular. I’m usually the planner. The girls he works with are funny so we had a good time. I just have a hard time not having any alcohol if I’m in a bar. I drank a lot of water in between and had good vodka so I wouldn’t be hung-over. I thought for sure I did every thing I should have so that I could be productive today, but as of 5pm I’ve caught up on all the shows I DVRed last week, played a little Face Book Scrabble and am now doing this. I made John promise that we would start cleaning the basement today, but he just woke up from a nap. I had to take a little xanax in the middle of the night to go back to sleep. It's like clockwork when I drink. No matter what I do, inevitably I wake up 4 hours later. You'd think I wouldn't drink at all, when I know I'll feel crummy the next day. I'm not really hung over, just really lethargic. I just get in the mood when I'm with a group that's doing it. I get so bored and anxious to go home, but when I'm drinking it brings out the fun side of my personality. I think that's why John made my drink so strong before we left the house. It reminds him of when we used to have so much fun, early on when we were dating. He's never said that, but whenever I don't feel like doing something, he starts pouring me a drink--he knows it'll pep me up. I also can't tolerate the noise and the smoke and the other drunks unless I'm one of them. I think that's why I want my house nicer, so I feel inspired to have people here. Then I don't have the same need to drink and ultimately feel healthier.
The band last night played a lot of cover music that everyone knew and passed around the microphone. They let me shake the tambourine and get up on stage with them (Which I would have NEVER done sober). I had a lot of fun and John’s co workers seemed to get a kick out of our shenanigans. My dancing last night was enough of a work out for me. I feel like such an old lady. My body aches. I guess there’s no hurry to clean the basement or put away clothes or all the other things I need to get done. There are always chores. I really wanted things in order for company next week. Thankfully the company I’m having is comfy enough, that I don’t have to have everything perfect. I’m so anxious to rebuild the shelves in my Family room. It’ll look so much nicer in here, plus I’ll have more storage. John thinks he’ll start in a few weeks. I want to paint a different color (altho have to paint right handed, till my shoulder heals--so maybe I’ve been putting things off) and ultimately get wood floors throughout (John keeps telling me our floors are fine). I want wood floors so much I can taste it. I just LOVE the look and feel like the house would just feel cleaner. There are a few more things that are on the list first I guess, so don’t know how soon that will happen. Have to keep exercising, so I can keep working, so I can have wood floors.
Next weekend, my high school friends Hope Pechin (Now Lukens) and Lee Stichter (Buck) will be coming over for dinner and games. I lost touch with Lee after high school and reconnected through Face Book. He lives here on the West side of Indy. Hope lives in Bloomington, and we have randomly kept in touch through the years. Thankfully because of email, I’ve stayed in touch with people through the years. As much as I thought something like Face Book was so goofy a few year ago, I actually feel I’ve gotten closer to people because of it. Maybe seeing a photo attached, keeps people on my mind more. I guess when people add pics or update their status and I can comment, I feel more connected.
Off to the shower now. John turned on football and I have a few more hours in my day to get something accomplished.